I think one of the reasons I couldn't quite relax this break was because of my feelings around the difficulties I have been having with a few students in my first period. Today wasn't that different but it was fine. Sure, I had two occasions of sending students out until I came to talk with them (conversations in the hall), but the lesson went well, the students stayed engaged and on track and big whoopee- I had to do some disciplining while I was teaching. Its part of the job and it doesn't mean I'm a "bad" teacher.
I think I was wishing that during break their would be some personal breakthrough, teenager corner turning toward maturity and self control- but today I realized that didn't happen to the extent I had been hoping for. That's okay. They are still bright, creative students and I just have to be CONSISTENT like a drill sergeant - or better- a COACH.
A-ha: Students need to practice and learn behavior, just like content and skills. And I do have to scaffold that behavior learning.
Reminder: Taking care of myself benefits my students and classroom.